Farewell to Life (T_T)

Thought recently exam week nothing special will happened yet a sudden incident happen and it make me speechless...Beginning of this month i got the news that my grandmother had sent to hospital due to some slightly health problem. At first i thought that there's nothing serious since she is old and it is quite normal if she been in out the hospital due to health problem. Anyway days to days i get news that she seem bcm seriously and i still dun believe that a normal old lady would suddenly have serious sick although she did hv cancer b4 yet she is a person that had walk at the edge of death before and able to survive from it til now...She had such a strong-willed person i had seen before who able to break any prediction or forecast from any feng-shui master!!!
Well i even bet v mum that she will keep survive until i go bk for holiday later and so strongly blive that she able to get well..this is not just kinda of praying, blessing yet a kind of strong feeling everything will become normal back!!! I so trust myself and grandma as well...
However, things are not always happened as what we planned or what we assume, predict..sometimes, GOD did have His own plans and change out will....... I just tot and hope this is not going to happened!!!
It proves i was wrong!!! Yesterday around 1.30pm dad called me and told me this bad news that grandma just passed away afternoon around 12.30pm..
......I not deny that i not like her so much since she is kinda bias and never treat us good if compared to others, yet i can't admit that she is my grandmother, my kin, a person that make my life still able to go on now......and she is just..i have no reason to dislike her......So i really hope i can be there not with her last breath but at least last farewell......And things are not allowed here since I'm going to face my sem final exam that this can't be postpone or retake later...and i unable to go back even for her funeral...I feel damn sorry to grandmother and i dunno who to blame at all!!! Just kinda of feeling really not good!!!
All I can do here is feeling guilty, regretting, and hope that God hear my praying! I really feel please bcz at least i did seen her last time when she was hospitalized and so coincidence i went back that weekend. Since i seldom go back home so we rarely met v each other and great that i able to see her maybe once but at least i had...or else I'll feel regret for the whole of my life!!!

These few days my mood never been good!!

eX@mM weeK.............

So now is my semester 5 final eXam week....

Well not much things happened so only talk bout the exam i think.....Errr...My exam.. for those who understand me well, my exam is kinda mess up most of the time since i never like to study and doing revision??!! Crap!!! So the consequences of being lazy is-----(1) facing failure (2) Being regret (3) Just cool down (hehhhe..there is me (^0^)) well if said I'm not scared, not care...all those things are just crap..words used to console, comfort urself for not being self-blaming..So, I'm worried, I'm scared, I'm...jusT wish myself could done better BUT if without effort then where am I going to get any results?? H@izzz.. Start study from the age of 7 unitl now yet I hvnt found or create any better ways to get OK result without doing any revision... So kinda no point here if continue being lazy =_=
anyway i stil not agree with those who always teach me study smart not study hard without poit... Anyone pls give me example or steps or any more description on Study Smart?? As i noe, aving tips or maybe the exact questions of exam paper are the ways those ppl "Study Smart"?? Is it so? I duno and maybe this is Malaysia's education, examination---no rules, no format---NOTHING but just a useless Gred letting ppl praise or maybe comment!! There is it...and that's y i always agree with the fact examination should be abolished!

I like this phrase that i get from someone shortout "等待雨........是伞的宿命 "

Oh p/s
forget to mention that i get my house for next semester.....Hope 7 of us who going to become housemate can get along with each other welll...looking forward next semester--life moving outside!!hehhhe <3

NothiNg Speci@L (@_@)

Nothing special happens these few days...Maybe bcz of final exam cmmin soon so everyone busy preparing.....As for me...well honestly i think of start preparing too....at least i have the thought dy..(a good starting =P) anyway that is jz a thought without any actions yet.....Gosh...Hw m I going to cover all the topics and subj??? How can I stil be damn relaxing?? HopElessss........ Ok stop the topic of exam here....lazy wanna talk bout it.....Jz wishing everyone Good Luck....

One more thing to mention here is...I actually met someone through fb couple days ago....someone that I......(admire gua??!! not sure) since primary and I really have different feeling towards him if compared to other people....... wel...is hard to explain by words but is great and happy to hear from him again although he might not recognise or remember me anymore..and I'm not going to say ''Hi" to him also...kinda wired i think....anyway he 'll always be my special person in my life ^_^ and i suddenly realised that ppl around me all become better, improving and i 'm the only one walking backward with a future not i dreamed for......

h@ppinEss seLdom lasT longgg...

Jz think that all our problem, trouble of searching new house for next sem have settle and can start focus on doing revision for cmmin final exam........YET.....when everything seem go on smoothly..there must be stg badly going to happened.......and it is true!!! news come out saying boys and gals are not allowed to stay together and we gotta search for a new house!!!!!!! Holy SHit......at the peak season rite now where m i going to search for new house in such a short time??!!! Goshhhhhhh....Re@lly make me 'biG heAd'...anyway..we gotta accept it and again start our operation Searching House.....(the middle procedure i'm not goin to mention anymore as it'll be as long as a nove l then xD)
anyway i just dununderstand y some ppl they really.....duno how to describe but kinda scared things or "cannot say boh to a goose".. anything oso scared here scared there....haizzzz.....their life will never get any challenge if like this rite?? i duno but i definitely not this kind of person (and would never be....)be a good "poppet" might be a good things but sometime be bad is not a worse things oso wat..it depends on wat situation and how u should act.......
well i really no words to say...*speechless* anyway i still hope these ppl can be more mature and not just follow instruction like baby mummyboy/ gal......
Now i still not yet find a suitable house and hope i'll get to solve this problem asap....God Bless!!!

House SearcHing~~p@rT 2- - -

toDay again we go se@rch ouR house since the name list edy come out.....well for those able to remain stay in hostel....is out of my surprise!! did theY act better than us?? what's the reason they hv chance to sTay??? UNFAIR..... anyway today we went to see a house around Tmn Midah there....."love at first sight" i finally can feel it..hahha....(act is towards the house)... is really a nice, big comfortable house for 8 of us to live insede.....honestly... i prefer to get 2 small house and live seperately to avoid any arguement happened during the period we stay together outside......... However, GOD not allowed it since we cnt get one...so we just accept it as a challenge, a test for us to be stay close, well with frens....
welll anyway just felt great to have house now..and a hundred thanks to aunty Susan for her kindness help us find the house........Thx very very much!!! btw....there is stg open my 'sight' today....... LOVE is BLIND!!!ppl can bcz of love accept things that they dont like...ok..well dun sarcas ppl here since i hvnt met my Mr Right...no more complaining....hehhhe.........

H@ppy, happy and happpY for getting a house..GOD blesss.......

House RentiNg~~~

Finally it's my turn finding house outside.. I have been kicked out next sem from my hostel.........H@izzz......After go out search for the house oni i realise how much i love my lame hostel.....hahhha.....sobsog =.= anyway...if any of u noe any house to let/ rent around cheras, HUKM pls informed me!!! I roughly walk pass around tmn midah oso cnt search for a suitable ideal house........Goshhh... "Ideal house" smmore..think urself so rich o...ishhhhhhh!!!!
apartment or flat is actually fine for me yet they are too many of us to be inside!! smmore duno y hv such wired feeling that got guy stay v us make us a bit inconvenient..maybe only me..but... stil WIRED!! anyway I'll cope to it soon..hope so....just..........Where am I going to get a suitable house/ apartment for 8 of us with reasonable price???????????

HELp help help........and to those I mahuan a lot....sorry cz hvin a stupid frens like me who is totally a buta jln + transport.....i oni used public transport or Bus 11........=.=lll
anyway thx for those who help us include the aunty and taxi driver.....make me blive there is stil kindness in this world........hahhha....2 mrw action of finding house will go on again..Good luck...Gogogo...chiak you lo.........get a house soon!!!

coMing b@cK~~

Hai....I'm back to write my blog after so long time disappear from here. Actually it's not I lazy to wrote blog buT.....hehhhe...I forget my blog's name, acc and avthing.....sOoo m@lu... buT nvm ..now I'm here again.... actually no idea wat to write here.... nothing to complain!!! how come my world suddenly bcm quiet......... yea.... loNg time nobody appear in my life xpecially recently so ntg special to feel....Well let's talk bout my past practicum.... errmm... one month of practicum and the successful thing i achieved was actually i able to ctrl all the little 'demons' in school..Hahha..looking back to my frenster's blogwhen i went for my very first SBE, things are totally different when i went for practicum....I seem cope to every problems that come to me!! HAhha..so Geng leh (thinck face =P) now my feeling towards the practicum.... one month i have been teaching and act as a primary school (although just a trainee) yet i din even have feeling to bcm a teacher yet....duno y..just dun feel like i like this job =.= how come??!! maybe there is other things in my soul that i prefer to do than a teacher gua.....x really sure bout it..... one month in school and the oni thing i learn is how to scold pupils..hahhhha...is true...all my frens say so....we r o hvin same feeling like our voice bcm louder and the techniques of scolding ppl.....so that's the fate of bcming a tcher i guess..........nevertheless i did enjoy the moment when pupils' appreciate ur teaching and that's kinda of feeling success!!!
Besides, the moment i like most in school is the time finish school...hahhha...i'll always be the first one to left, rushing back (is to avoid traffic jam actually =))...hehhhe... for me there is no pressure in teaching in school like what my lect used to say...I'm such a confident teacher............hahhhhaaa (Padan muka) and it might be true since my target is those little year 3 pupils...sure i can show off in front of them...Not a big deal...hohhhoooo...And plus stg...."Ponteng Queen" had a new title "Sleeping Queen" (well jz close to sleeping beauty, not a bad title i think) hahhha...i can even sleep not just in class during lesson in college but also in school's staff room....(PROUD@#) this is the behaviourof a GOOD teAcher....advice to those juniors or teaching coming soon........take thisas an example when u went to school.....Berkhidmat Utk Negara!!!! Bubye....gotta go SleeP agaiN.......wriTing bLOG oveR use my Br@in........hahhha.....C nexT tiMe!!!


proving of tcher sleep in staff room..what a suck!!!